Sunday, January 9, 2011

Incapable to plan

Disclaimer: All sentences in this post are written with a freedom of every sense which is likely to cause the writing to appear insane. Any resemblance to sanity is purely coincidental.

My life is completely unplanned. Sometimes I feel it like a surprise, like an unexpected gift by Santa Clause. But sometimes goes very weird like an income tax raid. Creates all chaos around, I feel disappointed, upset, sad. Suddenly shadow of pessimism covers me all around. My mind can't bear it and tries to find a way to sooth itself. It reads something good, tries to talk to inspiring friends, watches movies, prays and what not. Sometimes it becomes optimistic again in very short time. Sometimes it takes long time. Then at certain point it gets tired. Then sleeps and wakes up only next day. Next day is new flow. New dawn. Everything new. Like a new paper to draw a new picture. And again with no plan of what to and how to draw the picture, takes the pencil and brush in hand. Everyday it wants a new picture. If it gets it, then it is fine. If not, then it has to be the best picture it had ever drawn.

Enough of soothing... No punctuation, no grammatical restrictions. Feels good sometimes. Let's concentrate on work now! Income tax raid reminds of EPSF. Only 2 days remaining! Zzzzzz....

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